May

Today I realized that tomorrow is May!  April just flew by and I never changed our calendar. lol I can't believe how fast this month went.  I barely even remember the month... Wow!
May should be interesting. Baby boy will be 11 months old on May 6th.  I can hardly believe it.  Definetely been experiencing lots of bittersweet emotions.  It doesn't seem possible that it's been a year. I remember 1 year ago feeling huge, miserable and SO ready to meet my sweet baby boy.  It just doesn't seem possible that he's almost one.  He's such a fun age and such a sweet boy. I am so thankful he's part of our family!

May will also bring the end of our homeschool year.  We are 7 weeks away from finishing our curriculum, I am trying to condense it all to be done by the last day of May.  I need a break! lol I didn't want to do any school in June or July, so we shall see!  We'll be ending 1st grade.  Very exciting!!!!!
Next school year will be doing 2nd grade and PreK4.  Sounds insane!

alone

I had a really rough Sunday morning, which left me super emotional.  So after having lunch, hubby sent me off to Starbucks, where I sat all alone sipping some yummy coffee!  It was such a nice time.  I spent some time in the Word and prayer.  And just enjoyed the peace and quiet.  I def want to try to do this more often.  My alone time is usually running errands. lol  

weight woes...

I gained the most weight w/ my last pregnancy.  I was at my heaviest I've ever been the week he was born.  It took me a little longer than with my other kids to lose the pregnancy weight.  As of now I am clinging onto the last 10-14 lbs from the pregnancy.  It yoyo's every week.  I've been trying to lose 15 pounds since September.  I just cannot drop it, drives me nuts!  It doesn't matter what I do, I've been counting calories, exercising, trying new excersises... I'll lose 3 pounds or so, then gain it right back.  I don't know what else to do!
I hate my body, I want to lose this weight and feel good about myself.  I know I've had 3 kids in 5 years, I know my body will never be the same.  But I also know that I can at least lose the weight and get fit.  And unless I'm just not doing it right, nothing works.

I started daily burn this week, which def feels like a work out.  I'm also trying a few other things to burn the calories.  We shall see.  If this doesn't work, I may have to cave and join one of those beachbody group things b/c I at least know that works! lol  I just don't trust myself enough to keep that going.  It feels like it'd be so much pressure.