drowning...

after this week, that's what I feel like.  In fact, that's what I've felt like for a long time but this week just made it worse.  Still dealing with house woes.  Struggling with feeling content, struggling with trusting God's perfect plan and timing.  I KNOW everything is in God's hands, everything is done to bring Him glory and of course that's what I want.  But man, lately it's been hard to focus on that.

I feel like I'm drowning.  Swimming in a sea of uncertainties... I feel like the bank is holding the life preserver to save me but they are standing on the boat, far away saying "nananana"...  sigh.

I want this to be over, I NEED this to be over for many reasons.  I'm tired, drained physically, emotionally, mentally.  I'm DONE.