Will I honor Him?

For the past few weeks I've just been going through the motions, making sure the girls are taken care of, trying to survive through migraines.  I hate that I'm stuck suffering through these so often.  Today I sit here, feeling a migraine coming, probably due to the rainy weather.  But trying to fight it.  Today I decided that I needed a change.  I picked up my Bible and read, I'm ashamed to say it's been a few weeks... And I prayed.  I prayed over several things, but mainly that I'd honor Him with my day.  Whatever I did.  Today I did a lot of housecleaning and am working on laundry.  It's "easier" to do those when I know that I'm honoring God.  I need to make it a point to spend time in the Word first thing in the morning.

A few days ago we also found out that we should have an answer about our house within 30 days.  It's both a relief but also leaving me anxious.  We've been waiting since September, so we are ready for it to end.  But will it end the way I want it to?  I want the bank to sell my house and accept the offer we've had since October.  I want a closing date ASAP so we can finally move.  But is what I want honoring God?  Honestly, I don't know.  My fear is that if I don't get "my way" will I still be able to Honor Him?  I want to.  But knowing the way I am, I'm afraid that first I'll get angry and bitter.  And I really dont' want that to happen.

I'll be honest, this trial (w/ the sale of our house) has been really hard for me.  I have gone through bouts of anger, jealousy, bitterness, self entitlement and so many other emotions.  I have an awesome friend who constantly reminds me that whatever situation I am in, I need to glorify God.  So I pray through it.  Even in moments of anger, I pray and ask God to help me.

If you guys can think of it, say a prayer for us.  That our house would sell.  And that we can be God honoring no matter the outcome. :)